Junior continues to grow into this teenager that I am beginning not to recognize. I made a promise to Jennifer that I will love and take care of him more than necessary so he would not want for mother. I look at him these days and know that I have failed.
Yes, I know I'm being hard on myself -- I also know that I'm the best Daddy I can be to him, just failing miserably on the Mummy front.
I believe a Mary Poppins or Sister Maria is required in my situation... what do you think???
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Hi... came to this blog after reading the anniversary memorial ad in the Star today.. I am very touched by what you shared... Jen is right, what u two hve together although short in terms of earth years, are much2 more than others hve, so thank God!!!
2 days ago I got news that my hairdresser died of H1N1.. We only know each other briefly, and I remember advising her, in a motherly way, to be more diligent with her craft and to save for her old age.. It's heart breaking that she will never be in need of retirement planning... My mind had been thinking about this, and it reminded me again, that life is short and fragile and we need to appreciate the NOW, and to appreciate and love, and do our best and not wait for tomorrow.
You are the best father to junior..... well done!! Dear brother, draw your strength from our God who supplies all our needs.. At this age, Junior needs a strong father figure to be a mentor to him... However, you have a need too... some day when junior has to move on to fulfil his own destiny ...
If there is a sense of guilt or reluctance to share your life with someone else, I think there is no need. The Jen you've shown me thru this blog, will in fact be cheering you on to do just such.. and in fact, any loving wife will want her husband to be cared for properly too..
Don rush into it, entrust this to God.. we are His children and He knows our needs. The scripture tells us that, we do not receive becuz we have not asked... In all things, with prayer ad thanksgiving, bring your petitions to him..
Being a father/mother all rolled into one is not easy, may God's strength wisdom and resources be available to you always..
And, many apologies for intruding...
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